stright from the heart, i'm for you and i know you're there for me

awesome

2004-10-23T03:39:09Z

Welll today My ska band played a show at shore vinyard church in beachwood and it was friggin awesome, the croud loved us and we couldnt of asked for a better response, insane. Thanx to all who came out to see and also thanks to mark from summer hill for letting me use your amp, u guys were awesome to. Cat War and The Arizona were also friggin amazing, all in all it has been an epic nite, i even got waffles. And by the way, the vocals on the darkness cover were NOT meant to be serious lol. Insane, well i need some sleep, ttyl.

bill harding is one sexy son of a bitch....

2004-10-10T03:59:44Z

These are two freestyle raps of bill harding's that i just came across, i felt the need to exploit them in view of the general public....ayo, its hardcore

harding up for round 2
we all know that roses smell like ohh poo poo
craig is a pretty woman in high heels,
he touches me down there whenever he feels.
hes likes to eat his greens along with spam
me and him make out whenever we can.
cheeze wiz is the shit
and i dont like my penis, not one bit.
im lost and you are near,
the time has come and it is clear,
that these ni**as are gonna shank me in the heart.
has this love forsaken me?
but since when can u download porn for free?
i love to eat soup along with saltines,
i hate carrots and collard greens.
whip out my dong and wave it around
smack it on the wall, i love the sound
i just dont care, so i wave my winky in the air.
my balls they hang real low
i tie them in nots and into a bow
but craigs are bigger alot more than mine
thats not fair you dirty swine!
but the biggest balls of them all
goes to my man bonner, whos nuts hang on my wall.
much love mutha fuccas. love billoboo

The next stage........

ayo, its hardcore harding steppin up to the mic,
you betta close your eyes cause it aint a pretty site.
im a gangsta im a straight up G
im a gangsta i like run DMC
and for your information
my rhymes so sic they need medication (oh shit)
i like tortillas yes i do, but i only eat 1 or 2
because if i eat more than that i get a rumblin down in my ass.
in 60 seconds flat, no you can hold me back, because im fat.
i love to eat peas, i lvoe to eat corn,
but my favorite thing to do is whack off to porn!
A thousand fallen was a great band
i love you craig your the man
try to get some pussy so u can rest your hand (oh shizzy)
dont let anyone tell you penguins arent cool
dont ever get caught naked in the pool.
spank your aunt daily thats the truth
because uh oh the roof...
the roof , the roof is on fire.....
i love the smell of spoons, i love the smell of jackalopes
but theres nothing better than seeing rob king playing bass guitar.

...My friends, I give you...

- Bill Hardcore Harding -

please.

2004-10-07T01:54:44Z

Ive been acting so dumb lately, so selfish and self-centered, and i cant stand what ive done, i hate it, i wish everything could be perfect again, like it was, i can only hope you can believe me, only hope you can see that im sorry, i need to feel how it was before, im sorry, im sorry, im sorry, im sorry, im sorry, please, please, just please believe, that i am sorry, and that i want it all to be how it was, i know it cant just be like that because of my actions, but its what i truly want and im sorry, please forgive me. i need it to be how it was, i need the most important thing in the world to me back, i need my friend.

My Life is Way to Boring...

2004-09-23T01:53:28Z

Well, my life is boring, school has begun in full force, and it sucks, yes, it sucks. I basically do nothing all day, and i play guitar. If your life is as boring as mine, share a post, and we can be bored together.

My band has a definite show date planned, would u believe it. October 22nd at some church in Beachwood. Its gonna be pretty hardcore. were playing with bill hardings band, this band "cat war", and a few other bands, so its still quite aways away, but hey, come check it out.

Had a band practice today, and it renewed my hope for us, we sounded absolutley superb and there was only foud of us out of 8, hot holy damn.

Well thats about it, im gonna go back to my boring life, talk to you all later.

PS.. the streetlight show was Fing insanity, one of the best performances ive ever seen out of any band, frigging perfect.

millions died in the holocaust.....

2004-09-13T22:54:40Z

What am i to do now..

apples and pancakes....

2004-09-11T17:29:39Z

well, i think we have chosen "Slick Willy" as a band name, so yea. still have to get the dates of those shows, and my band still has to get good enough to play them lol, but were pretty good, so yea....

Hung out with leigh ann last nite and then beaver came and showed up and slept over, it was really fun and we all had a rather good time.. <3 Best friends.

Not to much goin on, school started, sucks, like usual.

Im about to eat wendys and im prolly goin to the south powderpuff game or w/e, so sounds like fun. Maybe a little band practice here and there.

So thats it... boooooring. ttyl folks.

yea its a speed demon...as fast as they come...

2004-08-30T16:18:33Z

Well, havent posted, so i figured i would.

My ska band is probably playing two shows in september. One at soem church in beachwood, and one at marks birthday party, so ill post those dates for anyone lookin for sticky wet sex and some good music.

Buuuuut, we need a band name. we cant think of anything good, honestly. What we've thought of so far is like:

The Girl Scouts
The Heat Seeking Losers
The pocket Protectors
Beam Me Up Scotty (which we would have used if not already taken)
The Essence Of Orbichoff
Billy in 4-C and the Headless Parakeats
Shits and Giggles
and like, stuff like that, idk, we need sumthin good.

So if u have any suggestions, leave them, anything is welcome, but try to make them good, were desperate people. and if by some act of God we use yours, we'll give u a prize, a good one.

arite holmes, im out.

i suck

2004-08-25T23:26:53Z

i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck.

and the Lord of the Rings party was kick ass, thank you to all who attended. The video tape is amazing also.

but in other news, i fucking suck so much ass.

i hate it

2004-08-16T19:15:11Z

im sad. i need a hug. I've realized that the world isnt fair, and it never will be. Its not even worth living in a world where a person can be a complete asshole, ruin everything, not do one thing productive, steal what u love away from you, and have no respect for anyones feelings, and yet still get anything he wants, ruin other peoples lives, still be liked by other people, and nothing bad ever happens to him. Yet the guy that is so nice, cares about everyone elses feelings, goes out of his way to make people happy, tries so hard in everything he does, and and actually cares about things, gets completely fucked over in the end, loses everything, and all he can do is just sit and watch the assholes continue to mess with people, ruin the nice guys lives, and continue to be happy. I guess it is true, nice guys do finish last, so whats the point in living.

i think....

2004-08-14T03:24:28Z

I think, finally, everything is cool.

PS.. South Carolina was awesome.

well

2004-08-13T21:34:26Z

Well, im back.

Its Fucking over..

2004-08-07T01:35:34Z

Im back from habitat, and it was fucking awesome.

Well scratch that weathering the storm ordeal. Once again my now ex-gf has proved that she just cant be trusted, she fucked up her last chance, and im not gonna take it anymore, shes put me through more shit than any man should ever have to go through in a relationship. And kel, as u read this, your probably gonna get mad at me, and say hes making me sound like some asshole, but u know what, its all true, no matter how much sarcasm you use, no matter how much you try to deny it, its all true, you have been an asshole to me, and im a nice guy, ive been so nice to you and never given any reason for this, yet im treated and fucked with like im some toy.

All this... " Cj, im nothing without you. I need you back baby. Im gonna work everything out this time, trust me, i swear, i love you cj. You can trust me, i promise, i wont change again, ive realized that i need u so much." "HEs just my friend" - Kel do u like him? " i dont know" ....i guess all of that was a lie to, or it became one.

so thats it, i cant stand it, fuck it, fuck it all kel, i tried so hard, idk why u have to be like this, u truly have something wrong with you and may God help you and whoever else you torture like youve been torturing me. I just dont understand, i dont, and never will, cause u never talk, everythings always shady, and you cant be trusted, your a liar, your a hippocrit, a back stabber, and this "i wanna be friends still" even if u wanted to be friends, friends dont treat each other like shit time and time and time again. And now i know i can never trust u again. Im sorry kel, it didnt have to be like this, but yes, it really is all your fault, and im not being harsh, im telling the mother fucking truth and you may not realize that it is and your prolly just gonna be mad at me for it, but it is. Goodbye, have a nice life. IM sick of it, idk how one person could be as thoughtless as you, and as untrustworthy. i actually trusted u, and just, ugh, i cant believe it, i dont fucking get it, and i still dont even have a good reason for why you keep doing this shit to me, but i dont care, your chance is up, and your never gonna stop changing. it was fun while it lasted, but man idk why u had to go and fuck it up this bad. goodbye. i can only hope one day u change, im sorry u had to do this, but u did it. i have nothing left to say to you.

I wrote a letter saying that i'm never coming back
now i can be here by myself without you and noone else
your such a waste of time, but ill be just fine

I saw a picture of you today
I cant believe how much you've changed
So much time to soon too quick, another reason for me to drink

Im buried in my shirt, but what i cant see wont hurt

And i hope i never see you again
Not after, not after what you did, and what you said
I bet you thought this story had a happy ending
But i hope i never see you again
Never see you again

BigWig - Hope

Im leavin on a jetplane, dont know when ill be back again....

2004-07-31T21:32:55Z

Well, not much to say, things are a lot better with me and kelly and it seems we've weathered the storm, thanks for all the support or, um, non support from all of you, your the best friends ever.

On a sadder note, im leaving for two weeks...

1. Habitat for Humanity with BATs, should be awesome.
2. South Carolina, Myrtle Beach, in a beach house, sweeeet.

So yea, i will be gone. I wanna go, but yet i dont want to, its a love hate relationship.

So i ask one favor, leave me lots of love for me to come back to.

I leave monday, if i dont talk to you by then, I love u all. :)

Peace out nuccas, talk to ya'll in two. xoxox Craiggles xoxox

94' Cavalier, Its Some Kind Of Rocket Ship..

2004-07-27T22:14:01Z

Well, its raining, and i got out of work early today, kick ass..

Well, had a band practice today, and, it like, sooooo fuckin kicked, soooooo much ass. Like, its not even funni, were good.

Goin out with lisa and the bonz and kelly tonite, things are startin to look better hopefully.

Been tired lately, nothin to much goin on. Goin on habitat for humanity for a week and then leavin straight from there to south carolina, sweeeet.

well, im done, gotta get ready, later folks.

....

2004-07-24T19:13:17Z

Before i start this post, i would like to thank everyone that posted on my last post, no matter what they said, what advice they gave, or what views they shared, thank you, it really means a lot to me to know i have such good friends that actually care about me.

I just got back from vacation so i just read it all, so thank you.

But yet i need some more advice, because my mind is in a world of shit because it has been tortured for the past three weeks, so im gonna write this next thing, and id like input, advice anything, idc, just tell me what you would do or sumthing...because idk anything anymore.

Lets say i got this friend, and he was goin out with this girl right. And everything was perfect, everything. Then one day things got funni, and he didnt do anything, but he was gettin treated pretty bad, and everything was really shady, and it sounded like things were gonna end, but he didnt give up. Then he went on vacation with this girl, and everything was perfect again in a matter of a day. He had the world, he had her, they were perfect, and everything and everyone was happy again.

Then they got home from vacation, and the very next day, when everything was perfect, he got dumped. She said things were just not right and she told him to just let go of her and forget. She said she wasnt happy, not because of him, just other stuff. But she never quite explains anything to him, so he sits by himself, at home, cries like hes been doing for the past three weeks, and just doesnt understand how he lost everything in a matter of a day, when he had the world.

So he goes away on vacation, its raining, he has mono, and two days after hes lost everything and is dumped and was just told by the girl he loved to let go, he gets a call. Its her of course, they talk, and what does she alrea start talkin about, gettin back together, she said she needed some time to think, and that she loves him, and that she realyreally wants him to trust her and shes gonna try so hard to make him believe that shes tellin the truth. She said she changed and that she promises and that hopefully everything will work out and that they need to hang out and talk things over.

Well a few days after that, there still talkin on the phone everynite, and shes alraedy changed. All of the sudden she doesnt seem so eager to get back together, he asks if she likes another guy, she says "idk". He asks if thats why shes changed already, she says "idk" then he asks if shes done anything with the guy she likes now, and she says "idk", well what is this guy supposed to believe now. i mean, wtf.

She cant give a straight answer, hes been dumped, lied to about several things, she has changed her mind about him at least 10imes in the past few weeks, mostly day by day, she said she wants to get back, now shes changed, said she didnt like her "friend" and now she cant even say she hasnt done anything with him. She wont talk about anything, she just gets mad, and what is he left with, nothing right now. Why wont she fucking talk, what is her problem, why cant she just get it out, what the fuck is it that she wants, why the fuck are u turning his life into a fucking hell, why are you torturing him, how can one person change ten times in the matter of a week and expect him to just be ok with it and deal with it, well hes not, hes sick of it, and she still wont talk, after everything, even after she "changed" or was that a lie too. who knows, im done talking now, thats my story.

And if you havent caught on, thats been my life for the past two weeks, and you know what, it fucking sucks, and you know what, im not ok, im so not, im fucking insane, and i have mono. And you know what, im tired of crying, i cant stand all this fucking shit, and i need an answer.

So if you actually read all of that, i commend u, and thank you for showing the slightest interest or concern towards fucking craiggles, but im sick of it, sick of it all. im done, goodbye.

Fuck It

2004-07-17T18:28:43Z

I just got dumped.

I loved her, i truly did.

It wasn't enough.

I dont know anything anymore.

Fuck it, just, fuck it all. She just wasn't "happy"

Well you know what, you had no reason to be unhappy, i never gave you one.

So im all alone again, goodbye. fuckers.

experience the warmth...

2004-07-09T00:06:57Z

Im sick...it figures...it sucks.

I have to work tomorrow, and im sick.

The retreat is this weekend, and im sick, although the retreat itself should kick some major ass, i cant wait, any BATs function is awesome for those who know what it is.

Im goin with Kelly and her family and cousin to their beachhouse in brigantine for around three days, that should be so much fun, i can hardly wait. Im gonna do some hardcore fishing with her dad, on account of hes my hero.

And then the day i get back from Brigantine, im leaving for Pennsylvania because we rent a beach house there for a week, so thats gonna be absolutely sextacular.

So thats all thats new with me, figured id just write it in here, im bored sittin around feelin like crap. leave me a post to cheer me up, thanx guys. ttyl *CraiggleS*

sometimes when we touch, the honestys to much......

2004-07-06T02:22:46Z

Welllll people, havent updated in quite sometime now. Im debating if im gonna make this a long or short post, we'll just have to see as we go along...

Well to start it off, work has been going very well, got my first paycheck, $313.63 is not a bad amount of money, i was expecting more, but im still pleased with it, and im savin every dime for a car.... and i actually saved a little kid, i was proud of myself.

Another topic.. i hate drugs and alcohol.. they change everyone, and i hate how all the time i get excluded from convos, sometimes its o CJ cant hear this dont let him know or he cant know about this, or the u dont drink or smoke? why? (laughter),i cant stand it, i hate how most of my friends do it and i get excluded from them socially and in many other ways its just so fuckin rediculous now and everyone prolly reads this and goes wow what a fag, lighten up, live a little, but no, fuck you, if u dont wanna invite me to your parties, or talk to me about shit just cause i dont consume alcohol and lite shit on fire that grows out of the ground so i can fuck myself up, then u must be to cool for me, so fuck you.. sorry, venting, but thats how i fucking feel.

Recent news... Uncle bob's house july 3rd, fucking awesome. me kel beaver kym bonner lisa sam troy and alec were all hangin out and there was the huge fireworks show which was crazy, mad bugs, good food, and a great time. Also way to go bonner and Lisa, live long in prosper u two turtle doves. <3

Last nite we went to fireworks on avon beach in pine beach, toomany peoplehere to name, we went to kyms after wards and played cranium.. awesoooome, good times good times, didnt get home till 130 in the mornin, thanx for the ride heather lol.

Annnnnd... today i went over kels house all day and it was raelly raelly really awesome...we hung out, ate, went swimming at the whiting lake and went for a nice walk and came back and went to wawa and had friggin homemade blueberry icing covered cupcake muffin things, ommmmggg, friggin awesome. Took some pictures, laid down, and just chillaxed, and ya know what, it was everything i hoped it could be. I love my kelly :)

Tomorrow i believe im goin to my aunts, shoudl be cool...

well that about wraps it up, ska band is doin good, get ready for this shit... im out xoxoxo Craiggles *

wow

2004-06-26T18:19:48Z

Last Nite was the big show, and oh my dear it was big...

Big D and the Kids Table = really friggin good

Lucky Boys Confusion = I would have rather seen limp bizkit

RX Bandits = h o l y s h i t, omg, they were so, like, damn.

Catch 22 = a bit sloppy, but still incredibley awesome

and finally.... omfg....

Reel Big Fish = no words can honestly desribe how amazing these son of a bitchs are. They were hysterical, amazing, hot, and to top it off, Aaron has a fashion-hawk. Best band ever to be concieved.

and thats all im gonna say...

I got a really cool RBF shirt and i got kel a really cool Catch 22 shirt, cause shes in NY...

I miss my kelly :(

Anyways, that was it, figured id let you guys in on that.

Later people, craiggles.

mmhmm

2004-06-21T00:00:24Z

yea, i started work today lifeguarding in ocean gate. If your in the area, stop by and visit, i would appreciate it.

Saturday i went to my little 12 year old second cousins funeral up in pennsylvania. It was a bad car crash, its really tragic and horrible. Things should not happen to people so young. Rest In Peace Sammi, we'll miss you so much.

Me and bonner went over Kel's house the other day, it was o so wonderful as it always is. But Lisa couldnt come over, which
deeply saddened us, especially bonner. And dinner was really good, way to go Mrs. Dish.

I blew my whistle at work today at some little kid doing crazy flips off the dock thing, he was insaaaane, i actually let him do like 6 of them before yellin, he was that entertaining.

Schools out, so thats good, exams were tough, but what ya gonna do.

Other than that, not to much else goin on, havent posted in a while, If you would like to leave random stuff in this one you can to, that shit is hysterical lol.

Later people, craiggles.

ps. o yea, and the MCR show was amazing, forgot about that, sweet crazy lovely beautiful action. to many details of that nite to write. i slept over kels which was really cool, and like, we saw all the bands leave, and they were all really good, especially folly, there ya go.

ok now..

2004-06-09T00:35:25Z

Arite, heres what I want you all to do... whoever, and whenever u read this, i want u to post, i dont care what u write, it could be about gingerbread men and a club soda, just post random shit, i wanna see what people can randomly post. So hop to it laddies.. what do u have to say?

wellums

2004-06-06T19:01:37Z

Wellll that past few days hav been quite eventful..

Friday nite i believe the crew was supposed to all go see harry to the potter, but that never happened, so we all came here as usual. To recap everyone that attended, it twas..
Mee, troooy, Kelly <3, lisaa, the bonner, the beaver, the kymberly (with a Y lol) leighh, lauren, tara, and of course markuss. So yea, it was fun, we playted hackey sack, went all brand new in my room, played strobe air hockey, went climbing on roofs at hill top, took a walk, laid around, ordered pizza, played rousing games of kemps, o it was o soo magical. So yea, then we left to take bonz and kel and lisa home, and everyone stayed behind to eat pizza. yup yup

Theeen, yesterday i went over kels, had some filet mignon, discovered her dad is my new hero, i mean, we get ice cream and friendlys right, then were goin to my house, he stops at sundaes, goes in, and gets another one just for him, i guess u had to be there lol, but yea, we watched my video project which was F ing up, and i had a great time, thanx again kellums :)

so yea, bats today, maybe harry potter, who knows, ttyl, mucho love, xox Craiggles

kankles

2004-06-02T23:54:08Z

"I was robbed by a sweet old lady in a motorized cart, and I didn't even see it comin."

"I fell off the jet way again"

"Im sick and tired of being a nobody, Im sick and tired of having to eek my way through life."

"A sack of marbles, a few comic books, petey."

"I wanna go somewhere warm, where the beer flows like wine, where the woman instinctively flock like the salmon of capistrano, im talkin about a little place called assspen."

Yea, i dont feel to good, i feel kinda like Lloyd Christmas.

Nothin new goin on really, i had an amazing weekend weekend at kelly's, thank you my love <3

Just had a band practice, only four of us, last minute thing.
If any one has any good ska band names, please share and post them, id be much obliged, and if we pick yours, u can come on stage and get naked, what a privelege.

Gonna go lay down, maybe take a few sips of the good stuff, ya know, milk always gets me trippin, maybe ill play some hard core coke pong with troy and we can be cool.

Cowa bunga, im out, to the window... craiggles.

back

2004-05-31T01:36:07Z

Yea, i went camping.
Me and sam caught some fish.
Kym went to a lui ow with lori.
We played guitar.
I am depressed over missing the FATA,18 visions show.
We left early.
Troy basically died.
S'mores are good.
Took a shower at uncle Bob's... an experience in itself.
Got a lot of ticks all over me.
Pissed in the woods.
Took a mile hike to take a crap.
Played horseshoes.
Kayaks.
Went deep sea fishing with lite up bobbers and "nuggets"

and out of all this, there was one quote to be had, and one quote only...

"I've done some right things wrong, and some wrong things right."

Samuel Lasko

How was your weekend?

survey bitch

2004-05-26T21:00:31Z

stole this from bonner cause im lazy..

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
28. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think I could kill someone?
32. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
33. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
34. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you?

yea, if anyone fills this out, it should be interesting...but noone will, cause thats how we roll in bayville.